deep dive
That was actually first demo i wrote on Digitakt II. In this song synth sound won over guitar samples from first two singles - that's why it has more classic darksynth sounds. Vocals became more variable and dramatic - from soft singing in verses to chainsaw harmonies in choruses. As i'm writing this description 1.5 years after this song was released i find it way harder to describe senses - sounds like deep dive is about deepression and how help from close people feels painful in this state. Take a listen, i heard that good art is open for interpretation. Also this song features my wife on backing vocals.
Lyrics
I'm sinking slow Too deep to breathe Heart too loud But words too weak Currents pull They won't release - No escape, no relief I'd rather drown than never feel (I'd rather not) I don't want numb, I don't want it (I want) Scars remind me I was real (I wasn't) Pain's the proof that I can heal Lost in the mess of a mind Tell me how I feel Make a deep dive Feelings burn But make it worth I'm hostile to myself That's all I know A stranger in my skin Nowhere to go I'm human after all But I don't want to be Damn, I wanna stop the sense (I don't) Love and hate blur into one (They won't) Hold on tight, then let it go (Or stay) Linger long, then start to fall Lost in the mess of a mind Tell me how I feel Make a deep dive Feelings burn But make it Cursed with joy, blessed with pain Wouldn't have it any other way Sink or swim, twist or shout Feel it all, then say goodbye